It has been a while since I have made any postings here. Between working and taking care of Mike, I am left short on a lot of time to do much else. Days come and go and before I know it, a week is gone, and then a month. My weeks go by in a blur, and by the time Friday comes I am so tired. BUT, I live for my weekends as this is the time I get to spend ALL of my time with my son, Mike.

Mike is doing well, he is getting better and stronger. He uses a walker now and is able to walk quite a distance if he is aided in the movement of the walker - if not, he can walk maybe 50 ft in an hour. His speech is better, but still very slurred - sometimes it is almost impossible to understand what he is saying. Patience allows me to wait for him to spell out the words that are too hard for me to understand so that I can get all of what he is telling me. Time is ticking away, and with all that I have prayed for Mike, I wish he was farther along in his recovery than he really is...

I do my best to keep his spirits up, by making him smile and laugh and ALWAYS telling him that I love him. I can tell though that he is sad. He is sad that he cannot do the things that he used to, I know this because he has told me so. It breaks my heart to see him down when ALL THAT I WANT FOR HIM is to be well and returned to a better condition, one where he can start to lead a better life for himself without the need to have someone on hand to constantly take care of him.

We are trying to have to hospital in Houston TX take him again to work with him more - but now they tell us that he may be TOO ADVANCED to return there. HOW CAN THIS BE??? He still can't walk, nor get out of bed by himself, he cannot dress himself, nor bathe himself. He can't eat foods and is still fed from a can (liquids through a G-tube). He has trouble swallowing and as a result he constantly drools. How can this be too advanced??? I don't get it.

Time has not been our allie. There is never enough. Now, I come to find that after 14 years working where I am - I am getting laid off. Let go! After July 6th I will join the ranks of millions out there that are currently unemployed. Yes, I will get a severance package, and be able to continue Mike's insurance through Cobra till Feb 28th, 2010 - BUT after that I will not be able to insure him.

I am scared, frustrated and starting to feel the darkness of depression closing in. I pray and I pray, for the Lord to show mercy on Mike and to aid in his healing everyday. To help guide him back to what/whom he was prior to his accident. I pray every night before I go to sleep as well. The last words from my lips as I drift off to sleep are for my son, and for him to someday be able to have a beautiful life of his own - to be able to finish school, to meet a wonderful woman whom will love him, to have children some day so that he can be a father (and I know he would be a great father).

Please help me pray for my son, Michael. Pease help me ask our Lord to grant Mike his blessing and total and complete healing. I love my son, so much - and want for him to come all the way back to us and to himself. Please pray for him. Please pray for him.